void of existence

Not many people understand my comments.  A lot of people think that those random comments are just nonsense.  How many people actually ask ‘why do you say that?’ to fully understand what is the problem…the real problem…the main problem.

Take my real estate agent for example.  She totally missed my point.  She notices that I pay more attention to the interior design than external factor though.  So at least she is minimally observant.  But she do not understand my considerations or my thoughts.

Take another example of my car agent.  She is a good sales person.  But she too thinks that my consideration for purchase of a car is the price of the car itself.  I do consider the price, but in the overall consideration of my recent purchase of my apartment and future plans.  Timing is what I am talking about here.  Its not that I cannot afford it now, but also where am I going to park it before my new apartment comes about?  I have no parking space at all anywhere decently near my place.

On another topic but same issue, cigars…why is it captivating and how does it becomes a social event.  Well, I know a lot about the bros coz they are sitting there for at least an hour.  Time that allow me to talk to them and understand them.  After so many days of 1 hour, there is only so much you can talk about the weather.  Very soon, we learnt how each other think, value system, etc etc.  We are bonding with that smoke.  I do not think  can achieve the same thing by drinking coffee in the same place for everyday for the rest of my life.  Pubbing is about the same thing.  Remember ‘Cheers’?  Where everyone knows everyone else?

The thing is I found that going by singular comments is a good way to weed out people who cares and people who doesn’t.  If they do, they will want to find out.  If they just want to lead their own lives without even bothering about me, they will just shrug it off as me being nonsensical.  Do they even think that I am not as silly as those comments?

The good thing about being with someone who cares is that no matter how silly we are, we are still of someone significant.  Its that we are comfortable to let our hair down and just say whats on our mind or just be silly coz we want to ‘play’.

Sunday…lazy lazy Sunday.

Went back to office to get some urgent work done.  Havent been back to work on a Sunday for a long time.  Its nice and quiet in the office.  No emails, no phone calls, no disturbance…got a lot of things done in record time. 

Anyways, I realized that I made a boo boo in my calculation.  I actually have more money to put into the loan that I am taking up.  Cool, isn't it?

Another issue that has been slipping my mind which I should address here.  If you are reading this, DROP THE THOUGHT FROM YOUR MIND.  ITS JUST A DATE.  I really do not understand how a 'Ya, lets catch up for a beer when this is over, and maybe we can even go dating and watch a movie' turn into such a big hoo-haa.  Boys and girls date.  They find out if they are suitable to be friends and/or more.  Its NOT an invitation to go to bed.  Its just a meeting and do something together in a public place to get to know each other.  B2 asked me to just apologise.  Huh?  for what?  for asking someone out for a movie?  Geezz…get real, girl.  Its you with a serious problem.

Anyways, I think girls these days have a BIG problem.  Well, explained why I am still single.

Another girl came into the picture.  She has a commitment problem.  She doesn't know what she wants.  No time for people who just want to mill around and wait for a fairy tale to hit them in the face.  Hmm…wait… I dun think its my loss.

Went shopping earlier as I am passing by Taka.  Bought 2 pair of pants, 1 shirt and a carry on luggage.  What do you know?  Shopping Therapy is fun afterall.   

Next 2 days are going to be hellish. 

'Brothers of the leaf'

The difference between japanese power rangers and american power rangers.  For the female at least.  Japanese power rangers have breasts.  Anyways, thats what on tv this morning when I woke up.

Drank too much last night.  Some champagne, 3 waterfalls (nasty stuff), and some other vile stuff.  I was so gummied up that I started jumping over walls.  Then I slumped into the good ol couch and went out.  Didnt know how I got home.

Time to get things started for the day.

'I know you.'  Thats the first thing she said when she walked through my office door.

My mind raced 'Who the hell are you?  I havent sleep with you before, did I?'

'You are from my secondary school, right?' She continued.

 'Phew..what a relief..I only slept with 2 girls from my secondary school.' 

Somehow, that encounter lightened up my mood a lot.  She is still single.  I am NOT alone!!! 

Man…I gotta get a brain check.

Equality…its a reality.  I have no problem with equality.  Its the lack of responsibility that I have a problem with.  In our society, many girls are starting to be making a good living.  But are they contributing to the family? 

We have ladies saying that they are not earning their money and making their mark.  What about the responsibility at home?  What about contributing to the family in other ways?  Or are they just taking the joy of earning money for themselves while neglecting all other responsibilities at home?

Its inequality all over again.

Drank a lot earlier on.  I am not pissed drunk, but neither am I awake.  Limbo…thats the worst place to be. 

Time is passing by quickly again.  Saturday will be a good day.  Saturday…Saturday. 

It has been a long journey…5 years… its been a while, hasn't it?

Memories…they are there for a reason. 

Tired.  Slept only 3 hours last night.  Time to go to bed.

Came back home after a night of drinking with the bros.   Bought home a packet of durians and another packet of mangosteens.  I need the sugar to keep awake.  Need to finish up some work.  For me, caffaine just make me edgy without the effect of keeping awake.  Sugar works much better for me.  I know..I know…its bad.  But hey, caffaine is just as bad.

 I finished my work at 4am and I decided to take a shower and sleep.  But gotta wait for my hair to dry. 

Much has happened the past week.  I feel drain by all the drama that is going on.  One good thing that came out of it is the verification of what I thought previously.  I know who I can rely on and who truly understands me, be it friends or family.

Being close to someone.  It really means the time and effort put into a relationship.  Communication is important too.  Time and effort allow the space for communication, but the actual communication must be done right for information to flow.  Assumptions…are bad.  When assumptions take hold, we assumee may even take all the effort to fit into the constructed 'mold' that the assumer has created.  That in itself is ok, coz the two persons are compromising.  But if this is not cleared up, and the assumee is unhappy to be in the mold, then tension will arise.  It may not be an outright flare up, but gradual erosion is even more dangerous.

I have created a mold in my relationship that I want.  I am unhappy about it.  But there is nothing I can do about it.  No..there is something I can do about it.  But I rather not.  I am comfortable right now.  I have my mind focus on other things.  I cannot be bothered with this game at the moment.  Maybe things will change.  I doubt it.  

Miss you.

I am sluggish today. No idea why as well.

My offer was rejected and the figure is now higher.  I dun know what to do now. 

Time to regroup and think. 

There is another place with a good square footage and I was told to be going at my offer price.  We'll see if its true tomorrow.

Ah..next week will be interesting.  I think we are going to be doing well then.

Casino.  Its called a damn casino.  Otherwise, everything in Las Vegas is called IRs. 

Reading through the newspaper on properties.  I have no idea why people think staying the IRs is a good thing.  I mean imagine the traffic, the congestion, the noise, etc.  Unless they are an avid gambler, I see no reason to be near IRs.