void of existence

I finally realized why 2 of my Indonesian friends have a lot of photo taken while they are in their car.  Today, for running to 3 places, I was stuck in traffic for 6 hours. 

Time for computer hardware company to invent internet connection devices while people are in their car.  If its already available, they should make a marketable version (cheap).

Went to airport this morning to catch my flight to Gotham City.  As I have lots of time, I decided to go shop at Duty Free.  This auntie came to me as I picked up my usual aftershave to assist me.  As we approached the cashier, she turned around and asked,

‘What is your flight number?’  Told her and she continued.

‘What is your passport?  Singapore?’  Told her.

‘Where is your destination?’  Told her.

‘When are you coming back to Singapore?’  What the…?  So I said,

‘You want my blood type as well?  Just in case I vomit blood soon and you need to transfuse blood to me.’ 

The sales lady didnt get it, but the cashier was laughing her head off.

Then, I came through immigration of Gotham City.  The immigration officer looked at me and then my passport and asked ‘Do you need visa?’ 

Huh??  I asked him back ‘Singapore passport?  Need visa?’

Then he asked again ‘Do you need visa?’

Told him ’You tell me.’  He looked confused.  I am confused. 

Friends.. I talked a lot about friends this day.

I have been very disappointed by friends in the past few years.  Particularly one who I feel have left his daggers deep in my back.  Also, there are so many who I have hold high up in my view but has turned a blind eye during my times of need and hold me low, if at all, on their list of priorities.  I am not surprised anymore but the shallowness of friendship. 

This make me more than appreciate kindness and true friendship when they are offered.  Family are friends related by blood.  There is no real kindness in that tie unless we make an effort for it to work.

That comes to my bros.  There are 2 of you, whom I have met in recent years, who I wanna dedicate this deep appreciation to.  You have shown me a lot of heart and willingness to bear with my nonsense.  It took a lot to look past the masks that I put up in defense.  You know who you are and I thank you, my fellowship of the bear chapter.

 Lastly, and most importantly, I thank you my princess.  I am home now. 

 Life is good now. 

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I am grumpy today.  I was rudely awaken by the fire alarm last evening during a sweet dream. 

Apparently, an idiot accidentally tripped the alarm at 3am.  Well, at least I know how it sounds like now.  So I got out of bed, still holding on to my pillow, grabbed my keys, wallet and phone before proceeded to evacuate my apartment. 

30-40% of the people responded to the alarm and was gathering in the pool area.  So much for being alert for the rest of the residents. 

So we hung around there for 20mins, still holding on to my pillow, keys, wallet and phone, before being told that it was a fasle alarm.  So it was a failed fire drill. 

I hate being interrupted during a nice nap.  Sigh…wonder what else will happen today.  Well, at least my pillow is resting in my bed now.

No one is allowed to bully you when I will not even let myself bully you.

You are mine to defend now.  And nothing will upset me more than your willingness to accept being bullied by others.  They have to get pass me first.

Playing Uncle Agony can be very interesting and bothersome at the same time.

Recently, the question ’how to go into a relationship and be happy in it’ came up a lot from different people.  I guess being in the Dark for a period of time, many are surprised to see the ’shawnshine’ (as B2 puts it).  Being in the emotional shit hole, it is difficult to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Honestly, there is no art to it.  Be it Fate or Alignment of the Planets or Divine Intervention… when 2 persons meet and click, bells will ring, angels will sing, and stars will grin.  In other words, dun try to hard.  Be yourself. 

Pre-Yve era – Dating is a game.  Its trying to meet as many people as possible so that bells will ring, angels will sing…blah blah.  But it doesnt always work. 

So we meet someone who we are interested (refer to above bells, birds, stars thingie), someone who we like and like us back.  Not everyone is as lucky as I am for meeting someone who has so many things that is important to me in my life partner.  Ha…yup, I got it so I am showing it off.  Anyways, so what do you do?  Well, behaviour can be trained and changed.  And I hope thats really the issue, coz if you are not attracted to the person physically in the first place and continue to go out with him/her, then I say you have a bad case of desperation.

Moving forward into a relationship.  At this age, we would have been through some experience of relationship.  We all have fear.  We all have hurt.  When we meet the person who could let us put this behind us, we must keep those there..at the back.  We cannot erase them, we simply cant, but we must keep it in sight and under control.  Sweeping it under the carpet is bad, coz if we ever happen to move the carpet (like an argument), these bad emotions may come back and haunt us (like dirt all over the living room).  We may even wonder why its so dirty suddenly.

In a relationship, the following motto works – To protect and to provide.  Its not just the guys..its for the gals as well.  We all play different roles, but we must play them well to make a relationship work. 

Well, once you are in it, make sure it works.  That is all there is to it.  Think carefully before going through it.  Let the sorrow of the past be your guide.  Let the mistakes be a lesson to your next.  Feed the with the tears that had flow, like a gentle stream into the earth, and the hurts of the old to be the fertilizer in making the next relationship to be a glorious plains of fragrant, beautiful flowers.  There will be thorns and there will be weed, but let them be the instruments for greater joy by the overcoming them together. 

The haunting ghost of the past does not control the next plain of earth, like the next person who you come across.  This plain may have been pillaged previously.  But with rest and nurture, it can bloom the flowers that are so beautiful to take your breathe and sweep you of your feet.  It is your choice.  It is your evolution.  To be extinct or to be loved.

Here’s something for u all.

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I read this article on .. ahem.. sex in SG in TODAY newspaper.Did u know that out of about 26000 singaporeans polled by durex, 49% said they always have orgasm during sex?  If the sample group is half males and half females, that means 51%  did NOT have orgasm.  I wonder if its all males who have and all females who didnt. 

After the long awaited period of 5 years, I have finally stepped into a new adventure.

It seems so alien an concept.  I did not know that happiness will find its way into the emptiness once again.  How it will turn out is entirely up to us. 

I am happy.  I am wanted.  I have come home. 

This is a new chapter.  I want to see the sun rise tomorrow. 

Thank you all.  Thank you bro.  Thank you Yve. 

Went to buy watermelon for lunch this afternoon.  The auntie was amused when I told her $2 worth, sliced off the skin and bag them in 1 bag. 

Watermelon.  This is something that one need to bite into mouthful at a time from a big slice.  Such is happiness.  Take a big one and slowly bite into it..bit by bit.

Recently, I found out a disturbing news from the family of another divorce.  From this family statistic, it seems that the following probabilities will apply…if you believe in it.

3 out of 7 chance:  Divorced

1 out of 7 chance:  Widowed

1 out of 7 chance:  Single

1 out of 7 chance:  Cohabit

1 out of 7 chance:  Married

Thats 1 good chance and 6 bad ones.