void of existence

I like being alone. I like being at peace with myself.

I appreciate the quietness in me. The fact that I am aware of my emotions before they overcome me. Being overcome by an emotion is a choice. I must remember that.

Be it when I am alone. I find serenity.

Be it with a friend. I find comfort.

Be it in a crowd. I find peace.

Another message for someone in mind.

Sluts. Guys love them and Gals hate them.

There is nothing wrong with the pursuance of physical and material pleasures. If you want to be a slut or a bitch. Then make sure that the ego of being a wholesome person is thrown out…totally.

I can be an asshole sometimes. But there is still some good in me…sometimes. And I just cannot forgive myself for being an ass all the time. Hence I decided to be ass to people who I dun give a dam about and be good to those people close to me (they are a small group anyways. So little good in me for little number of people).

I digress.

Its ok to be in a relationship without commitment. That is called being a sex buddy. All you need is that $2 condom and you are all green to take off. Be it the runway or the slitway, just remember that landing on the right footing is necessary. Otherwise, you will see that grass is not greener when you slide all the way to the other side.

You have positioned yourself as a sex buddy. Its back to being a public toilet. Who will bring a public toilet to install at home? No emotion? Then why are you thinking so much about it.

Meat is like sex and milk is like love. You slaughter the cow for its meat. You milk a cow for its milk. But if you want the milk, then you cannot slaughter the cow first. But if you milk the cow first, you can still slaughter it for its meat later.

This year’s Golden Shovel Award will belong to you once again. Only that when you jump into a pool of shit, you dun really need a shovel to dig since you will sink in naturally by yourself.

A message to a snob.

I remember that the first time that we met was during the X’mas party in 2005 at a friend’s house. You made the excellent potato salad. The special thing about it is that usage of the ikan bilis which adds a different twist to the dish. Being interested in cooking, I picked that up fairly quickly. And you refused to tell me what it was. In fact, you seem reluctant to even talk to me when all I did was being there. Its when your girlfriends urged to know as well when you finally told them the answer. The defensive wall is so high that something of value must really be up there for a person (especially if he is required to wear that stupid and heavy shining armor) to climb.

After that, we met again for another 8 times or so: twice for movies (1 of them with dinner at Conrad), 3 times at the same friends’ place for bbq, 2 times for meals (once being a friend’s birthday), and once more at a club. I have even sent you home once.

Two years and 9 meetings later, what do you even know about me? Probably nothing…that is your weakness. Even though both of us are not interested in either of us, but dun you think that is a good opportunity to just make a friend outside of your immediate circle? Someone who you can ask when you need curtains and plumbing instead of calling someone who was in Penang for help.

So what are you thinking right now? What is wrong with me? Creeping you already? Oh..you dun care…

Well, those are excellent questions. Dun care is an action that we decide, but does it bother you still? Do you mind about it? Dun want to care, but you mind about it. Ironical, isn’t it?

Coming straight to the point now coz I am tired of being subtle.

1) You are defensive. No one owes you a living. No man definitely.

2) You are a snob. You need to rethink your defensive wall. Or you need a man to treat you badly enough to either:

- Turn you even more sour (which is most likely to be the case); or,

- Teach you what is good in a guy, so that you will not think of needing to whip him in the relationship.

3) You are shallow when it comes to men. You need to dig deeper than what you see. That is why you can only go out with guys who have a reason (work probably) to get close to you, before you fend them off….even as just friends.

A person can be easily misunderstood. I am often misunderstood. I am often seen as nonsensical. I am often seen as an idiot. Maybe I misunderstood you. And I couldn’t care less either. But I have been single, depressed and misunderstood. And understand this, it’s only you who can make the difference.

Do to others what you want others to do unto you. That’s the saying, isn’t it? You want someone else in your life, then you must make the effort to ensure you are good company to the person down the path of life.

Open up and talk to people. Next time you go to a party, say hi to everyone. Shake everyone’s hand. Learn what the other people are like (their hobbies, characters, likes and dun, etc)…not just your friends but people in general.

Well, I came across this story today.  An airline in Germany is starting service for nudists.

I had that idea a long time ago already.  It will never work outside of Europe.

Been a while since I last updated here.  Well, I am still alive.  Recently, been busy with a number of things.  CNY preparation, Wedding preparation and other routine stuff.

Last evening, I attended a wedding of one of my gaming kakis from younger days.  The event was held at Fullerton Hotel.  I thought it was a pretty good run for Yve and myself to see what we wanna do for ours.  Well, she seem dead set with the typical, ‘everyone is doing it, so lets do that too’ kinda routine.  I do not see a real reason for following the sequence at all.  What is the point of asking people to stand up(1st march in), sit down, eat a bit, stand up again (2nd march in), sit down and stand up (Toasting) again?  Oh well, we shall see.

We were seated with some of the brides’ friends.  2 of the dudes are bored, so they go out for smoke breaks frequently.  4 others are delusional about getting ahead in their career if they have a MBA and they are so envious of the one person within the group going to start on his MBA soon.

At one point in time, we wondered what is the point of gathering for a wedding?  Well, I would say its to celebrate the occasion with people we like and to rub it into the faces of people that we dun like.  Probably…

But isn’t it just great to have friends celebrate for us on such occasions?

There is a part of things that I thought went a bit too far.  The mother of the bride had invited a group of monks.  Now, I am not sure how appropriate that is.  They are supposed to be above such things, arent they?  Its just wrong.

Probably one of the building that is still untouched by the ‘urbanization’ in the last 20 years.

One of my favorite Indian curry restaurant.  Its located in upper Bukit Timah..almost reaching Bukit Panjang.  The thing about the place is that the food is reasonably good, but the environment is just more relax than those in Old Race Course road.  Dining there is quieter and slower paced, even though the staff works just as fast, that it has an old times feel to it.  I used to go there with my Army officers during my NS days as my camp is just right in front of it.

The price is reasonable as well.  And the spread will not lose to any other similar restaurant.

I dun have much use for other people kids mostly.  But this is such a good pic of the kids of my good friend Lily.  I always tell her..that daughter of hers is going to break hearts.

Driving around..we missed out on a lot of things of such minute details that is such lovely treasure.

This next picture shows a floral tiles on the face of some shophouses along Sungei Road.  The pictue is not clear, and I probably will never use them for my own house, but they are just lovely to look at in the place its in.

Bags of Rubbish – Here’s the thing that I said when I hear the ‘Save the bag’ campaign. Basically, every first Wednesday of the month, the supermarkets are charging for their plastic bags as they hope that bags will be saved in the long run. Well, I normally dun throw away the bags until I reuse it for my refuse. The point is if I dun get those bags from supermarkets, I will still need to buy my own plastic bags since the dump collection requires us to ‘bag’ our refuse. And I cant stuff more rubbish into a bigger plastic bag so that I use less bags coz the stupid dump hole is only so big. So to me, its just the supermarkets trying to pass the cost to the consumers.

Refurbished with the physically challenged in mind – Ok, physically challenged is just the politically correct thing to say about the handicapped. I do not discriminate against them, but the fact is that they are not functioning as another average person. So whats to be politically correct about? Boliaoness, I guess. I was walking at the new Kallang Shopping Centre or whatever its called. Its been around since the 70s and it finally get a major reno. So instead of a run down mall, it gives a total brand new look and feel to the place. There is a cinema and ice skating facility.

The blind walk – And we were walking around even though most of the shops are still renovating..then we noticed that they have added a walking guide for the blind. See below pic for the yellow strip on the floor. How thoughtful…except that the blinds will be in for a nasty surprise as they are going to walk up against signs and post boards put up by the shops.