I am an alien March 21, 2007
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The subject feels strange in this world. Everything around has turned into black and white one day. It was listless and unfruitful. No matter what happened. Recently, the subject has describe things in hue of grey. What is it like to see the colour again?
Many moons have passed. Yet time seem to stand still on that one little moment. Same time as usual. The chemicals swirling around the subject remains the same. But the subject is adaptive. It has new weapons to deal with the challenge. But the raw ingredients are the same.
Time means nothing in this place. What is fear? What is worry? Such is not the concern of the subject. Like an unliving or undead, depending on how you view the subject, everyday passes in grey.
The subject search the meaning of its existence. Encourage and discourage at the same time. Time is not important. Once the colours fade, it will never return. Or will it?
Some stories have been written..the main character holding on to what he truly believes. Those stories lies. In a movie, such is admirable. In actual, such is challenged and disbelieve. No one encourage such acts. That is the real challenge. Everyone swaying the determination…the promise…the character. The most often heard is displacement..some call it moving on.
Displacement. Does it matter if there is real displacement? Displacement is about a different location. Does that location makes a difference?
The subject goes back to its meditation. To sort out and to hold out the challenges. Silently admitting that the colours will be faded even if it ever returns.
‘Tell me..what does it feels like’ – It feels as real as it just happened. The darkness starts to envelope the surrounding. What is there to fear in darkness when the subject is darker than the known dark.
There is no eternal colours. Every colour fades after a while. The subject holds on to the grey as that is the only colour left to observe. Grey is not that bad after all. It normalizes the exposure to other colours.
The Mean End January 24, 2007
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More thoughts from the dark mind.
Do you care about it? Do you have it? What would you do for it? What would you do when you have it?
Replace it with anything you want: Money, power, good looks, brains, etc etc.
Are we satisfied when we have the things we want? I have come to the conclusion that
1) people with the end will not worry about the mean,
2) people with the mean will not worry about the end,
3) people without the mean will care about the end,
4) people without the end will care about the mean.
In summary, we only worry about things that we dun already have or the ways to get it. Why are we worrying about things that we dun have or cant get? How many times will a person be frustrated by not winning from their lottery than that one time which they won $20? So maybe its the hope that we are fighting for. Hoping is good, but worrying is just so unnecessary. But we do it anyways.
